Sunshine and solace

As many of you know, I moved across the country to Klamath Falls, Oregon. For the rest of you, here’s how things went:

As you might know already, my kids and I have been working to get out of Ohio for several years. We have been ready to leave a few times over the last couple years (money saved, jobs lined up for the working members, and rentals located), then something would happen to change the plan. Most recently was the pandemic. Anthony and I were planning to leave in April 2020 so that we could get things situated and then the rest of the family would head out. However, it didn’t seem like a good idea to travel across the country while so many people were getting sick and worse.

After a couple more false starts, we finally got the ball rolling in January and began looking for a house to purchase instead of rent. After many disappointments (not the right cost, seller backed out, not big enough, etc.) we finally landed in Klamath Falls, Oregon.

Bear the Cat supervising changing the lights.

The house is smaller than what we wanted, but the back yard is fenced in and we (Anthony & I) are still able to keep some separation so we don’t end up getting on each other’s nerves too much. Now that we’ve got several repairs taken care of, the interior completely painted, and even started on the yardwork, it’s starting to feel like home.

A break in the middle of repairs.

There have been so many other changes that I’m not sure where to start so I’ll go with the hardest first. Éowyn didn’t come with me and that has been one of my greater heartaches. She seemed to have fallen in love with one of Anthony’s friends and their fiancé. I know that might sound silly, but when J & M came over to help us load the Uhaul truck, Éowyn didn’t want to leave their sides. When we’d stop for a break, she’d lay down near them, she played with them, and then she moped when they left for the evening. It was very clear that she had chosen them to be her family and I couldn’t find it in myself to take her away from them. So, after delaying the trip and getting many details worked out, Éowyn became Shiva and is now practically grinning in all her pictures. She’s going to be taking classes to become a therapy dog and will help with some PTSD, CPTSD, and anxiety. I think she’s thrilled to have a job to do. Though this has caused considerable tears, J & M have sent updates and pictures and have kept me updated on how she’s doing. I miss her terribly, but I know that she’s very happy and that’s what matters.

The other great heartache is leaving most of my family behind. Brianna’s wee family is still in Ohio for another 12-24 months and that’s hardest of all. While I greatly appreciate the ability to have regular calls and video calls, it’s not the same as a good hug. Seriously, Brianna gives amazing hugs. And, of course, I’m missing a lot of Tamara’s growth. She’s already starting to use the toilet and babble up a storm. Each time she sees me on the screen she smiles as if the most wonderful thing is happening and that makes me feel like I’m overflowing with happiness. I love listening to her parts of the conversations and how she “explains” whatever is on her mind. At the same time, the tears flow for this reason, too.

Lilacs

And, the town isn’t nearly as liberal as I’d like. It’s still unsettling to see people sporting items from the last president and even more so to see people gathering to “unmask” the town. Science is important to me and it saddens me to see it discounted so forcefully.

Even so, there are good changes, too. Sunshine! Since we arrived there have only been a handful of grey days and all the rest have been filled with bright sun and cool breezes. I’ve already decided where the solar oven is going and will be getting it built in the next week so that I can begin using it to dye yarns and fibers with. The yard is small enough for me to tend it alone and my goal is to add as many native plants as I can so that it’s easy to maintain and will enhance the local fauna. I’ve already started on one corner of the yard and will work my way forward. Having the ability and space to work in the soil again has gone a long way to soothing my heart. And there are deer! I know that I might be annoyed by them someday, but it’s been thrilling to see them so close to the house, just chilling and grazing.

There is potential here.

Shop stuff… that’s pretty important. Right now the Etsy shop is on “vacation mode” and will be reopening on Summer Solstice (June 20) with lots of new items. As I mentioned, I’ll be solar dyeing within the next week and I can’t wait to see what colors come out of the trays. Lyn, the laser cutter, will be situated in her own space and will be sending her miniature lightning bolt across the surfaces of wood and such to bring more beauty to the world. Crystal grids? You got it! Divination dice? We’re certainly going to try! Decorative plaques or altar tiles? You bet! What else? Herbal items! Do you miss the lotion bars? I certainly do and I’m determined to bring them back in stock posthaste. For now, I’ll start with unscented, but will be able to include some light scents over time. Salves, too. My healing salve is at an all-time low level in this house and I’ll make enough for the shop, too. And designs! As I work through the socks & scarves for the Year of Meditation, I find myself really taking moments to meditate as I knit. Sometimes it’s not more than paying attention to my breathing, other times it’s envisioning myself in my tiny home in the woods somewhere in the near future. I sincerely hope that the others knitting these patterns are able to feel the same.

In the middle of all of this, I’ve been trying to stay as healthy as I can, taking time to write in my journal, sip coffee while watching the sun come up, and write as many notes as I can for the patterns swirling through my head.

May you have a glorious week!

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